renungan malam

bingung mau nulis apaan, bolak-balik delete terus... ga puas ama tulisan gw sendiri.. feels so confused rite now...

kayaknya gw sedang berada d titik puncak konflik batin gw antara gw dengan diri saya sendiri... gw ngerasa ada gw dan saya di dalam diri ini. n 2 different personalities ini seems like have same pole... N and N, S and S.. so it never come along together at one time....

G tau kenapa gw ngerasa kayak lagi dibanting-banting ajah ama diri sendiri. Perasaan gw campur aduk, so blurry...

pengen ini, tapi tiba2 pengen itu.. gak pengen itu tiba2 jadi pengen... really even i can't tell myself what i really wanted.....

i'd like to say, life is simple and bla bla bla... but the truth is life never be that simple. It's difficult and so complicated...

i just like wanna scream, but i dunno what i'm gonna screaming out...

in my singing in my talk in everything i've done i feel so empty..

need to talk to somebody, but i don't wanna talk anything... just so confused and really angry with myself....

even write this kinda bullshit on my blog doesn't make me feel better like it used to be...